Something happened today, something that I NEVER thought would happen. Ever.
I bought my very first 2 peice bathing suit.
Ok so let's go back a little bit. Before last summer, I would have never put a bathing suit on.. Nevermind a TWO freaking piece suit!
My fear of being stared at, made fun of, laughed at kept me away from beaches, pools,waterparks.
"Look at her..shes too fat to be here she's hanging out all over the place.. Shes ugly." These things constant went through my head.
And as I am sure.. SO many other women have been through the very same thing. The very same heartache.
After going to the beach 100 times last summer and after seeing other plus size women walking proudly in their two piece bathing suits.. I SWORE this summer I would get try hands on one too! I CAN DO THIS!
Let me tell ya, today, while trying it on, I had a hard time. Yes, the girl that has dedicated her life to helping other women love themselves and accept themselves.. Doesn't always love herself, cuts herself up, and tears herself down... On the regular.
I jiggled my upper arms, poked at my belly and whined about my back fat. Luckily I had my friend Vicki with me who I know would be completely honest with me and tell me if it looked terrible. I really have to thank her.. She too is a plus size woman, who always rocks a 2 piece and she really helped me see that it looked great on me! Sexy even!
One of the women who works at Torrid, piped up and offered her help as well, it was such a positive atmosphere, which made it all so much easier!
I'm not going to lie... I'm going to be scared wearing it in public for the first time.. But MAN.. If I even inspire at least ONE woman by stepping out there in that suit I will be a happy, happy girl!
So. If you too are in the same place where I was (and sometimes slip back to) take the plunge, try one on.. BUY THE FREAKING BATHING SUIT! 💙
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