Moving With ease - Terra's story

After being separated from my authentic
self, for quite some time, I have spent the
last 1744 days reconnecting.
1 day at a time, 1 step at a time, letting go,
trusting the process and asking for help!
My name is Terra, and I am a recovering
alcoholic.
I choose not to be anonymous, in hopes
that my story might help others crack open
that door, to a new beginning. ( A life lived
without Alcohol. )
We all have a unique story, and it took me
many failed attempts on my own before I
was desperate enough to reach out and ask
for some help.
I have no control over Alcohol, I finally
could admit I had a problem! I always
thought that an alcoholic had to be
someone who drank everyday, someone
who has lost their job, their license, ect.
I couldn't identify with those qualifications, and this is 1 reason that had
kept me sick. Not realizing that the path I
was on would surely lead me in that
direction.
A progressive disease I am told.
But whenever I had a drink or 2 , I found it
very difficult to stop at that. And if I did
manage to stop there, I was very irritable
and discontent.
I was always an all or nothing type drinker.
It had a hold on me, and I had real difficulty
living in the moment.
I rarely felt content.
Waiting for the weekend so I could let
loose and be free from my thoughts, and
my responsibilities for a while.
I was living my life on repeat, on the same
rollercoaster that I couldn't get off.
Today my life is beyond my dreams. My
heart is full, self love is now something I
practice daily. The opportunities that are
arriving are refreshing and readily accepted.

I can breath!  I can move with ease, knowing
where I'm supposed to be. I feel apart of my
community, I show up for my family and
friends and I am accountable. My life has
done a 180. I'm so grateful. My spirituality is
growing and getting stronger! I can look in
the mirror now and tell myself I am loved.
If you are struggling, please reach out. Ask
for help, you are worth it.
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Having had done this incredible experience
with Jennifer, I now feel even closer to my
higher power, Mother Nature.
Staying grounded is continuous process
that I am willing to put my time into these
days. Thank you Jennifer for all your kind
affirmations, guidance, love and
acceptance sharing part of my story with
others!
Terra Barkwill

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