Screw You, Anxiety and Depression! - Julia's Story

Where in the world do I begin? It's never easy to talk about your past, it's never easy to talk about your angst or your pain or even admitting something. I have depression.

There. I said it.

It's out there and I can not take it back. Sounds really scary and intimidating when you say to yourself or even to someone else that you have mental health issues. There are days that I have to remind myself that I am not flawed. I am not broken.

When I spoke to Jen about doing a cheer session, I had a very specific colour in mind that I wanted to use. Black. I bet you're thinking, black!? But this is a CHEER session! That's OK, let me explain.

Yes my paint colour of choice is black but I also used gold sparkles. The black represents the darkness, the anguish, the anxiety, the sadness and fear that I experience on a regular basis. Although I'm medicated, these feelings can still creep up on me but I know how to handle it better.

The gold glitter and sparkles represent the light shining through the darkness. No matter how dark things get, you can find your light. You will sparkle and you will shine.

When I spoke to Jen about my ideas, we were bouncing ideas left and right and we were getting more and more excited! When photo shoot day came, (please note, I'm about 7-8 hour drive from the studio) I was beyond excited.

I loved the welcome sign at the door and it was such a welcoming feeling.

I had my makeup beautifully done (thank you, Brooke) and it was time to be painted.

I stood in front of Jen, topless with my arms stretched out.

I remember the feeling of the first couple drops of paint landing on my skin and it felt like I was being baptized.

Jen was so loving and supportive during the shoot. We shared so many laughs.

The pictures turned out how I envisioned them.

This is only a small portion of my story.

Thank you for reading.

Remember, those struggling with mental health issues are not broken. We are warriors.

- Julia

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